just the other side of me

that day,
you said you dun think there's any chance of us walking into marriage.
i broke down deep inside me.
this is the damn thing that i dun wanna hear from you.
though i expected that,
but when those came out of your mouth,
i feel that my hopes are diminished.

and from then on,
i've been reassuring myself,
if i try harder, if we try harder, there could be a future for us.
but its so hard to try already, cos...
i dont feel secure anymore.
why should i work so hard for my bleak future?

i keep thinking how good you were treating me,
your sweet actions,
your care and concern to overcome those uncertainties in me,
but its not enough.
not enough.
not enough to erased those "no future" things u said to me that day.

do i really love you?

or is it just because i dun want to be single, and so i cling on to you so hard, thinking that i love you?

i dunno. i really dunno now.

i hate you, for making me so dependent on you.

posted by sAmaN+h4 @ 9:17 AM